I think I’ll hang out here for a while…

05Mar08

Well, I’m sure you can guess that my happy little high from the 3.2 loss didn’t continue. Last weeks WI had me up by more than I had lost the week before, up 3.8 pounds to be exact. It’s really frustrating to go through this, this constant up and down and up and down roller coaster. So much so that although I will continue to go to meetings and weigh-in, I’m no longer going to focus on loss, just on maintenance. I just can’t do this anymore. I don’t want to feel like I’m giving up, but I think that my body is saying that it no longer wishes to lose any more weight. At least not now. I’ve been at this for months, since November semi-officially, and definitely since January, ever since I switched to Core and I feel as thorough I’m getting NOWHERE. I just keep gaining and losing the same pounds over and over and over again. I’m SOOO close to the 150’s but for some frustrating reason I am just NOT getting there.

I will continue with WW because I want to keep going to motivate my mom who recently joined and has been doing well, and because although I’m not going to actively focus on the scale, I do still want to lose and I know that WW can get me there.

That being said, my eats haven’t been spot on this week, but they haven’t been bad either. I won’t slack off on my eating, and will still continue to track, but if I want a cheeseburger, every once in a blue, I’ll just have one. No sense in depriving myself of the things I want to eat if I won’t have any losses at the scale to show for it. I just won’t have the cheeseburger AND fries.

After almost 4 weeks into the program, more than one person has commented on my looks, and I do feel clothes getting looser although the scale has stayed the same. At one WW meeting, when I decided, at the urging of one of the receptionists, to choose a weight goal, she commented that I looked like I was already at the weight that I had chosen. I attribute that to my active lifestyle AND to the NROL4W program, which is a good thing.

As I’ve said before, I’ve given myself until August to get this 20 pounds off, so I just have to keep pushing. Maybe this is just the weight I’m supposed to be at, who knows. When my mom told my dad about the hard time I’ve been having these past few months, he said the same thing. Now granted he’s no expert, but it’s nice to know that I’m not the only one thinking along those lines. I think I’ve just come to to the realization last night that I might want to stop focusing on the scale and just try to be the best me I can be (you know… “Butterfly in the skyyyyyyy… I can go twice as hiiiiiiiigh….”).

In any case, I like this strong, muscular look and feel I’ve had so far from the NROL4W program. I told myself to stick it out for the first stage and see what happens, and I can see myself continuing this for the six months, which is shocking because I’ve never stuck with anything like a rotation for longer than a month. I am thinking about getting one of those removable pull up bars and some lifting bands and working on my back. Since I don’t have a lat pulldown and I am SOOO not feeling the lat pull down alternative in the book, I want to be able to put more emphasis on my back. Those things aren’t cheap though. I do have tax money coming, but I think I might wait until the money’s actually IN my bank account before I go spending it.

So the focus for the next few months - getting FIT. I want to be able to do assisted pullups, start a semi-regular running program, and start swimming. I already bought a swim cap and goggles online and can’t wait to get them.

I joined a gym. Sort of. It’s actually a membership for the NYC Parks and Recreation gyms in NYC and the outer boroughs. 37 dollars for 6 months and I can use any location in the city. The one I checked out last week had some treadmills and some weight training equipment, nothing at all fancy, no fancy TV’s to watch while you’re on the treadmill or anything like that, but they did have… an INDOOR heated POOL! I am REALLY REALLY excited about that; it was my main reason for signing up. I LOVE to swim and haven’t been able to do so lap style in a LONG time. I already have a suit, I just need my goggles and swim cap and I’ll be ready. I don’t know HOW I’ll fit my hair into a swim cap, but I bought one of those over sized ones with the chin strap, so hopefully that will be okay. Pool users are required to wear one and I thought that I would at least make an effort rather than just jump into the pool without one and have someone admonish me for not following the rules.

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