Cammie at the doctor…

20Mar08

I was RAVENOUS this morning, but ate my planned apple instead of a bagel from the deli or something from the vending machine. It really does pay to plan food ahead of time so you’re not stuck in these situations where you’re hungry and have less than desirable options in front of you.

I can’t even say it was hunger really, since I had already eaten breakfast. I had a doctor’s appointment this morning (tell you about that later) which took me out of my usual neighborhood and there were delis all over the place. All I could think about was a toasted bagel with butter. But I just told myself no. I had already eaten breakfast at home. (Which reminds me that I’ve realized that cereal in the morning isn’t enough for me. I need something more substantial to tide me over until lunch). So I just passed those delis, and went to work. Lunch time now and since I ate the apple about an hour ago I’m not ravenous.. but still ready to eat.

Today: Day 7 - Arrange your Environment. This is something I’ve been doing for a while and am pretty good at it. I find it interesting that Beck recommends putting things out of sight - in the back of a closet or on high shelves - but for me, since I put it there, I ain’t hiding the chips from no one! I know where they are so if I wanna eat them in a moment of weakness, I’m gonna eat them. Which really says to me that I don’t even need to bring those foods into my house. I have these brief moments in the grocery store where I think I can handle having a bag of chips in the kitchen, but as evidenced from earlier this week with the crunchy cheese thingies, I just can’t. It kinda sucks that I am unable to control myself, but Beck says to just say Oh well, deal with the disappointment and move on. I’ve resolved that I won’t bring these binge-inducing foods into my kitchen no matter how I feel when I’m in the grocery store. I just have to do it.

A woman in my WW meeting, older woman who lives in an assisted living community. She’s on WW but she’s confined to the meals that are prepared for her in this community she lives in. She’s requested certain things like low fat dressing for salads, dressing on the sides, etc, grilled chicken instead of fried, more fruit and veggie variety, etc., but since she’s not buying her own foods and creating her own meals she’s limited in her choices, but is still determined to make WW work for her. In 9 weeks she’s lost 15 pounds. When she told her story in my last meeting I really thought to myself, “What am I complaining about?? If this woman can do it then surely I can.” I really felt so small, like I had NO excuses. Really put things into perspective for me. If I really focus, using Beck and the things I KNOW I need to do, I really think I can do this. I just have to make sure not to let the rough patches turn into these long affairs with food.

So I went to the doctor this morning. I made an appointment last night and got in on a cancellation. And of course my shoulder felt perfectly fine. The doctor had a hard time finding anything wrong, but did notice some clicks in my shoulder and recommended some PT for the arm as well as my knee, which I told them was giving me problems as well. Both of these “injuries” are strange because they don’t really hurt all the time. My knee only gives me issues when I do activity that has to do with running or jumping and the shoulder seems to be much better today as opposed to how it felt a few days ago. The knee pain isn’t really a pain, it’s more of a stiffness, especially when I’ve been sitting for a long time and then get up. Who knows. I’ll go to the PT because I like having all that personal attention. It’s like a massage. But only for the parts that hurt.

In the meantime, he didn’t say anything about not doing any physical activity, so I guess I’m in the clear, especially since the arm is feeling better. Thinking I might start P90X on Sunday. Still thinking. This morning I did three push-ups on my toes. Measly push-ups with poor form, but still three!

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Tags: Beck, doctor, P90X, physical therapy, weight watchers