I’m stronger! Hee!!! I love it!

This was my second time doing C&B and saw strength gains! I did more push ups this time around than last time and that makes me happy! I’m still struggling with those damn decline push ups - those are the hardest for me - and of course I’m still on my knees, but it’s a start. Depending on how I feel next week I might try starting some on my toes and seeing how I feel about those. I don’t want to rush myself, especially with the twingy shoulder, but we’ll see. I’ve got a little bit of confidence now, who knows what might happen.

I still hate the bands. I am not sure I’m doing the pull ups and chin ups right. I’m not even sure if there IS a right way. I’ve done what Tony says, just make sure I lean over and have my lower ribs on my leg, but I’m not FEELING a burn during the last few reps. I’ve thought about just continuing on even though the DVD has moved on but I’m not sure if I should. I mean I could be there all day pulling and pulling waiting for “the burn.” UGH! Damn these little ass doors! I’m still wishing for a pull up bar.

ARX even went well; I found that I could do more reps of certain exercises like that damn crunchy frog. I kinda bonked in the last 5 minutes, but overall I was pleased with my effort.

Diet MUCH better these past two days. I’m still tweaking things though, I’m trying to get 40% protein but I just can’t seem to get there even with the whey protein after today’s workout, a protein bar for a snack and ground turkey and cottage cheese glop for dinner. I’ve stayed w/in my calorie range today, but went a little over on carbs and fat but that was because I had two servings of cashews instead of just one. Tomorrow will be a test for me because I’ll be back at work. I’m just trying to stay disciplined, and not think about anything else but THIS: P90X, counting my calories and keeping myself disciplined. I don’t want to think about WW, or Beck or anything else. I think my brain is on overload with so much information, so I’ve made some rules for myself and this is what I’ll follow for the next 82 days:

1. Continue to crush P90X!

2. Eat clean, stay w/in my calories for each day, get enough protein, and have three meals and two to three snacks a day.

3. One cheat meal a week. I’m not sure if I can handle this yet, but I think the big reason for my binging lately is because I was feeling deprived of the foods I like to eat. This way I can allow myself a cheat meal, eat whatever I want in this meal, (not to excess) and get on with whatever it is I need to do.

4. Do not weigh myself until week 5.

And that’s it.

Tomorrow: Plyo X. I’m gonna have to modify this a little, I don’t want to upset my knee. Plus I’ve got PT tomorrow night and I have no idea what she’s got planned for me.