Day 21: Reflecting and Stretching

12Apr08

I feel good this week. I feel in control. My brain has quieted down and I feel focused. I have a goal. I’m pretty confident that I’ll get there.

This Thursday at a meeting at work a co-worker mentioned that my arms looked muscular and asked me if I’d been weight lifting. I don’t know if he meant it as a compliment or thought I looked like a linebacker or something, but at least he did notice. It felt good!

Also last week a woman who lives in my building, saw me as I was on my way to the supermarket and complimented me on my weight loss. I don’t even know this woman, I’ve just seen her a few times as I come in and go out of my building. Again I felt good. Things are starting to happen…

I also did the closet switch last night, pulled out clothes for for spring/summer, and put the winter clothes away. I came across a pair of pants I bought from the Gap many moons ago. They’re a size 18. I remember wearing them to work one day and I feeling that they were a little snug, but I thought it was just because they had a lining and I wasn’t used to pants with a lining in them. I remember finding it hard to breathe in these pants, and I remember my thighs feeling constricted in them when I sat down, but again, I blamed it on the lining. I put the pants back in the closet and didn’t wear them again for a while. I remember pulling them out again maybe a month later thinking I’d give them another go… and they were too tight. I’d only worn these pants one time because the next time I decided to put them on I could barely zip them up. I think that’s why I kept them, they are really nice pants that I barely wore. So last night I put them on. They were pretty darn big. I’m keeping them. I guess you could say they are my before pants. I can’t believe I was that big. Bigger I guess since I wasn’t even able to fit into them when I started Weight Watchers last January. For all my complaining about not reaching my goal weight and bring stuck at a plateau and getting so frustrated with this journey sometimes, I am still so happy and grateful that I’ve gotten to this place. Am I at my goal weight? No. Do I STILL have slip ups? Yes. (Those damn cashews again today!) but I will do whatever I have to to make sure I never go back to fitting into those pants again.

Tonight: X Stretch. Just waiting for the sun to go down so I can light my candles, and just relax.

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