I’m not loving the recovery week. I’m doing it, and I know why it’s necessary to do it, but I’m just not feeling it. I feel like I’m reverting, gaining weight instead of losing it. So I decided to throw in cardio on as many days as I can during the “rest week” in an effort to hopefully get off a few more pounds and inches before the big weigh-in and measure on Sunday. After that, the scale goes back into the closet for one more month.

I got up this morning in a bit of a frenzy. The alarm woke me up. Usually I’m up anywhere between a half an hour to fifteen minutes before the alarm goes off.

I got dressed and went into the living room, fully prepared to do some step with Cathe… but I suddenly changed my mind. No more step. UGH. But then I didn’t want to do any kickboxing either because I had already done that twice this week with Cathe and with Tony. So I decided to pull out the treadmill instead.

At first I was gonna do one of my Cardio Coach CDs. But then decided against that too. At this point it was nearing 5:30 so I figured I had better make up my mind and quickly before it got too late to do anything.

I got on the treadmill, did a 5 minute walk, stretched for another 5 minutes, then ran an entire mile. I couldn’t believe I actually did it. I’ve never done that before, ran a whole mile without stopping. Now granted it was a SLOW mile - a 15-minute mile - but a mile nonetheless. Then I walked for 5 minutes, did another half mile, walked for another 5, then did another quarter mile, walked for another 5, stretched for 5 and that was that.

It felt good! The stars must have aligned in my favor or something because I really felt good while I was doing it. It was tough, especially that last quarter mile of the first full mile, but I just kept pushing myself. I know it sounds crazy, but I just remember thinking about the way I push myself doing P90X, doing things I never though I would be able to do, endless pushups, chair dips. Why wouldn’t that same concept apply here as well?  I didn’t even give myself a chance to think “Oh,  maybe I can’t do this…”  I just did it, and I really surprised myself.

I was watching TV while I was on the treddy, but next time I’ll create a playlist on my iPod and use that. I think it will help me not be so worried about the time. I kept looking down at the console because I didn’t have anything else to concentrate on during the commercials.

Tonight, X Stretch. Tomorrow, Yoga X I think. Or freaking Core Synergistics. I can’t remember which one. Believe it or not, I hope it’s Yoga.